The Key To Whole Hearted Living Is Vulnerability

Are you holding back in sharing your heart with others?  Do few people know your greatest struggles?  I believe your struggles were chosen for you by your maker who loves you and wants to help you through and strengthen you to be there for others.

People from all around the world are sick of liars and short on trust.  Most people have been hurt many times in their lives.  They are done with it and have made their circle as small as possible to not get hurt again.  Then they cross paths with you.

How do we go deep in relationships? How do we peel back the layers in other people’s lives in order to develop long-lasting relationships that are rewarding.

Vulnerability is the key.  Without vulnerability, there is no way to see what is inside another.  Without vulnerability, the walls between us and others remain.  Without vulnerability, we are unable to truly help others but will always remain distant and lonely.

In western culture, we set up professional walls.  As a nurse, doctor, therapist, psychologist, psychiatrist, we are taught to not be vulnerable.  This is often seen as unprofessional or crossing the line. But, the greatest professionals I’ve met in life are those who were willing to be vulnerable.

teaching groups
Vulnerability is my life calling.  I met this group 3 months ago and have shared my personal struggles and pain with them.  Why?  Because they suffer from depression and anxiety and need to know the way out.

How can I be more vulnerable?

How do I do this?  I have chosen to be honest about who I am, what I like and don’t like, my pains and then path to healing.  That honesty frees me from my people-pleasing-burdensome-past.  I am free to be me with many people and let them chose to walk with me or not.  Through vulnerability, I have seen lives around me change for the better. I hear of lives touched.  This motivates and encourages me to keep going.

Its like I discovered a hidden medicine that no-one has seen and is too expensive to buy.  Why is it expensive? It costed me blood, sweat, and tears.  But, all of that was for nothing if it doesn’t pour out to heal others.  Now the pain was worth it!  How can you be more vulnerable?  By taking the first step.

Will I get hurt due to my vulnerability?

Yes.  Hurt people hurt people.  But, I have experienced way more joy than pain from relationships in my life.  There are times I have wanted to shut people out due to pain but I healed.  I chose to not live that way. I am so glad I made that choice!

What are the benefits of being vulnerable with others?

  • Vulnerability makes me a better leader.
  • Vulnerability makes me a better wife and mother.
  • Vulnerability makes me a better friend.
  • Vulnerability makes me a better writer.
  • Vulnerability makes me a better nurse.
  • Vulnerability makes me a better counselor.
  • Vulnerability makes me a better promoter of ideas.
  • Vulnerability creates eclectic relationships that are bridges to outsiders or those who would normally avoid us making our relationships a beautiful tapestry.

Here are some relationships awaiting you:

  • Cross cultural relationships that go deep.
  • Crossing over religious barriers giving both parties a breath of fresh air!
  • Cross family walls by admitting faults, apologizing for wrongs, and serving in love.

Our children are watching us and its my desire for them to live a life of happiness with fulfilling relationships.  My kids meet so many strangers in life.  We make friends with people from around the world, all different cultures, religions, and walks of life.  I am an example to them of being vulnerable, hospitable, and caring to bring new relationships in.

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As world travelers, these kids meet so many people.  I tell them to go deep, share their lives with others, and make friends with everybody you meet.

So what is holding you back?

Why are people afraid to be vulnerable?  Mostly fear of rejection and pain.  Fear of losing respect or looking like a fool.  I’ve experienced it all and can say that I have had times feeling awkward in conversations as I have shared and they did not.  But, I have had many more opportunities to help others than I have experienced embarrassment.

Therefore, don’t give up on people.

When is vulnerability unattractive?

Vulnerability is not complaining, brewing, gossiping, or venting.  All of these activities are emotional drains on yourself and others.  Be vulnerable BUT do be positive about the things you have endured in life.  Nobody wants to hear another complain.  You can present your struggles in a way that is hopeful, even when you don’t feel hopeful.  You can present your struggles without complaining.  Mention how you see your pains as helpful and healing to others.  You can see changes in yourself from the difficult experiences.  Positivity is important for us and others.  This helps in healing as we verbalize the good in the tough times.

I have a lot of friends.  I like having a lot of friends.  I like people.  I think good relationships are the key to happiness in this world.  Therefore, I use vulnerability wisely to open the door for more friendships in my life.  Friendships are not a burden for me.  Some feel that they only have time for a small circle but I have found that this is not true.  True friendship that includes vulnerability lasts over years, distance, even hurts and misunderstandings.  Don’t carry that burden but release yourself from the idea that those who hear you must like you.  If one rejects you, there are 10 more ready to accept you!

How will I feel after being vulnerable with others?

Peace.  Peace with God and peace with others.  You will find a fresh new purpose in your life as you walk others through their pains.

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so we can comfort those in any trouble with the same comfort we received from God.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

I’ve mentioned this quote before, but it is so good that it is worth mentioning again:

“Other people are going to find healing in your wounds. Your greatest life messages and your most effective ministry will come out of your deepest hurts.” Rick Warren The Purpose Driven Life.

In finality, vulnerability if done with positivity is not weak but brave.

“To be vulnerable is not weakness, rather it’s our most accurate measure of courage.” Brene Brown

16 Things That Will Stop You From Meeting Your Purpose In Life

Trial by error.  Each of these lessons below are stated from experience and hey, I’m an open book.  I hope you benefit from my mistakes and get a laugh out of it too.  Marc and I’s purpose in life is to impact the lives in Southeast Asia for good which led us to begin an international NGO in an underdeveloped country.  Everything I said in that last sentence, ate my lunch.  If you don’t get what I’m saying, it kicked my butt.  But, it taught us a lot as we are living out our purpose and overcoming MANY obstacles. Here are the 16 things you can do, to stop yourself from meeting your goals in life.  Trust me, they work.

Accept All Labels People Put On You

Labels can take away the potential for change.  Diagnosis for life, negative characteristics, flaws, labels are all lies because we are forever changing.


Why rejecting labels is important? I refused to accept a diagnosis about my mental health and choose to believe it was temporary.  I refuse to call my husband a pessimist and myself an optimist, knowing as circumstances change so does our perspective.  This was important in “getting back in the ring” when things got tough.

Compare Yourself To John, Dick, and Jane

“When I see ads on TV with smiling, happy housewives using a new cleaning product, the only thing I want to buy are the meds they must be on.”

Social media creates a picture perfect identity and I am constantly reminding my preteens of that.  In all seriousness, I can tell you that comparing yourself with others will create wasted emotional energy that will steal from your ability to move forward.  It will destroy potential friendships that could you attain more.  It can hurt those around you and create unnecessary bitterness and self hate. Don’t do it.

Broil in Bitterness

Why is forgiveness important for your success?  Bitterness in the heart only hurts us.  Hate and bitterness are contagious, harmful to those we love, and require great amount of emotional energy.  Hate in the heart must be dealt with before one can move on to their greatest potential.  Many believe that forgiveness is a feeling but actually it is a choice we make and sometimes that choice has to be made over and over again until the feeling comes along.

“Genuine forgiveness does not deny anger but faces it head-on.” Alice Miller

My battle with bitterness led to my betterment.  Facing anger is brave.  I became more confident in my abilities to love when I chose to forgive.

Fight Those Who Reject You

“To avoid criticism say nothing, do nothing, be nothing.” Elbert Hubbard

Leaders will always be rejected by some.  This can be painful.  I recommend reading the book Leadership Pain: The Classroom For Growth.

The more we lead, the more we will experience rejection.  The more we speak out, the more we get criticized.  The more we do, the more we fail.  It’s just a number game.

The hard part is to learn to accept constructive criticism, reject negative criticism, and know the difference between the two.

Through prayer, meditation, and reading through the Bible, we have remained rooted in who we are, what we are called to do, and how we should be doing it.

Refuse To Work With Others

Team work is important; it helps to put the blame on someone else.

We all have an independent streak which can be used for good but independence to a fault will isolate you and lead to defeat.  “Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” Ecclesiastes 4:12

Marc needs me and I need him.  Without each other, we could have never succeeded.  If you didn’t read my 40 reasons why, take a moment to read it here: 40 Reasons Why I Love Working With My Husband

Partner With Anybody And Everybody

You know that tingly little feeling you get when you like someone? That’s your common sense leaving your body.

I have seen bad partnerships and bad marriage choices that have ended in pain.  Two people without one heart, mind, and purpose.  We can love, forgive, and accept others but this does not mean that we need to bring all people into our inner circle.

“Forgiveness must be immediate, whether or not a person asks for it.  Trust must be rebuilt over time.  Trust requires a track record.” Rick Warren.

Don’t Make Any Firm Decisions

I used to think I was indecisive, but now I’m not too sure.

Why is decisiveness important?  Leadership requires it and those who follow you are in great distress without it.  I use to work with a friend who I loved very much but he had a flaw.  He could never make a decision. At one point, this friend left the business for a year and did not put anyone else in charge.  He said that he didn’t want to hurt feelings.  While he was gone, the work struggled amidst lack of leadership, empowerment, and battles.  Confidence in your decision-making is a necessity to lead well.

Criticize Others

A recent study has found that women who carry a little extra weight live longer than the men who mention it.

Who doesn’t hate working in a place with gossip, bullying, judgmental attitudes, rudeness, rolling of eyes, etc. But the worst part of it all is. . .

a. It’s highly contagious and self-destructive to all.  Boom. Done. Purpose not achieved, not with this group!

b. For all you holier than thou’s, this exists in all places that people exist. Churches and other ministries are not excluded.  Repent, change, be done with it! Enough said:)

c. It starts in the brain, that’s right, your thoughts boil until finally spewing over.  Do you think that you can keep that inside and pursue your goals?  I didn’t think so!

d. It’s just not any fun!

“We are psychologically, emotionally, cognitively, and spiritually hardwired for connection, love, and belonging.” Daring Greatly by Brene Brown

Reject Your Leadership

After spending 16 years focused on the same goal, I can predict one thing for certain.  Leadership always changes.  Be patient not spiteful.

When my boss asked me who is the stupid one, me or him? I told him everyone knows he doesn’t hire stupid people.

Be Pessimistic

“In Business and in life, the reasonable optimist will win every time.” The Happiness Advantage by Shawn Achor

Change the phrase “I have to” into “I get to” and you will find it makes a world of difference in your day. Remember, how we experience the world is shaped by our mindset. 

  • I have get to go to work.
  • I have get to wash my families clothes.
  • I have get to drive a car in traffic.
  • I have get to cook for my family.
  • I have get to pick my kids up from school.
  • My to do get to do list.

Cut Into Your Sleep So You Can “Be More Productive”

If you haven’t yet, pick this book up!  Arianna Huffington will eloquently convince you to change your sleep habits now!  Personally, I hurt myself very bad from not getting enough sleep.  I believe adequate sleep could have helped prevent a period of depression and anxiety in my life.  I’ve shared some quotes below from this book.

“Many of the genes affected by lack of sleep are involved in processing stress and regulating our immune system.”

“Once I started getting 7-8 hours of sleep, it became easier to meditate, exercise, and make wiser decisions.”

“Sleep makes us better at our jobs while simultaneously reminding us that we are more than our jobs.”

Believe Your Morality Doesn’t Affect Your Success

Temptation to believe that our own trip-ups will not harm others or be discovered by others is an age-old lie.  We found that as we were on the path to attaining our goals, we would be tempted to compromise our moral code, who we wanted to be.  Looking back, if we had tripped in those moments, we would not be anywhere near to meeting the goals and purpose in our lives.

That being said, there have been tearful confessions in our family with apologies, forgiveness, and moving forward together that was necessary.  To sweep any temptation under the rug, is to arrogantly say, I will not fall.  Neither of us have ever regretted the open confession we have had in our 20 years of marriage.

Don’t Sacrifice Your Desires

Any goal achieved without sacrifice is worthless.  Any gift given without sacrifice has little value.  Our greatest achievements are due to our greatest sacrifices.  The more we give, the more we get back.  Do you believe this?  Live like it.  Give away more than you get.  I promise you that you can depend on God for everything.

The “I deserve it” mentality will only set you back.  If we give reluctantly, we become bitter and mad.  Often in our times of difficulty or when funding has been short, we have felt that anger saying “I’ve worked hard, and I deserve to get what I need.”

Choose to sacrifice and give freely without expectations but in hope.

We have sacrificed many things in our life but the blessed part is that God has provided all we need.  We are not financially rich but what we’ve given in money has come back with contentment, happiness, joy, fulfillment, love, and other things that you can’t put a price tag on.

Quit If You Don’t Succeed

“The next time you face a daunting challenge, think to yourself, “In order for me to resolve this issue, I will have to fail nine times, but on the tenth attempt, I will be successful.” This attitude frees you and allows you to think creatively without fear of failure, because you understand that learning from failure is a forward step toward success.”  The 5 Elements of Effective Thinking by Edward B. Burger

You will want to quit!  I wish somebody would have told me that!  I wish I believed it when someone probably told me that!  But, guess what secret I know now.  The greatest moment comes after you jump that hurdle.  When all you want to say is “I quit, I give up, I’m exhausted, I did my best, its all I can do,” is when you realize that your goals are not your own but they are divinely His!  He wants to achieve good things through me and he will overcome because my goals are His goals.

Don’t Forgive Yourself

I am a nobody, nobody is perfect, therefore I am perfect. You are perfect.  You are perfectly you with all of your mistakes you’ve learned from, all of your weaknesses you’ve smudged into your career, and all of your successes that came from realizing your weaknesses.

I hate guilt and shame.  I love conviction from God because He is slow to anger and speaks with love.  Guilt and shame are damaging and discouraging.  Fight it and don’t accept it.  Unreasonable guilt and shame can destroy a person inside out leading to depression:

“A study using data from 108 studies with 22,411 participants found that shame and unreasonable guilt (guilt in which one feels an inflated sense of responsibility for events that they could not control, and more general guilt which is not specifically linked to a certain situation) were similarly linked to depressive symptoms.” (1)

Decide It Is Not Worth It

Success comes when “The fear of loss is greater than the desire for gain.” Zig Ziglar

Every couple of years, this is what you will hear us say “Is it worth it?  All this work.  All the sacrifice.  Should we quit?  Are we really heading anywhere or making a difference?  Have the hurdles become too difficult?  Do we have enough energy to move forward?” Discouragement comes.

What trait is the greatest predictor of success according to research?  Grit, courage in difficulty, perseverance through pain.  To attain high goals in life and fulfill your purpose, it will hurt.  But, this is the life without regret.  Let’s do it together!

(Continue to follow my blog to read more about defining and developing your grit.)

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Why did I include this picture?  I just thought it was funny!

If you saw a good joke here, I may have made it up but most likely it came from!

  1. Kim, S., Thibodeau, R., & Jorgensen, R. S. (2011). Shame, guilt, and depressive symptoms: A meta-analytic review. Psychological bulletin, 137, 68-96.

Meditation And Spiritual Games We Play

I couldn’t wait for the big day.  I have 2 bucket list dreams for Christmas. One being Bethlehem and the second Notre-Dame Cathedral.  I have dreamed for years of visiting Notre Dame for Christmas.  Why Notre Dame? Ancient beauty, stain glass windows, and worshiping with many different nationalities and denominations. Not to mention its one of the most well-known church buildings in the world since 1163.  Why not?

Celebrating the birth of Christ at such a scenic and monumental location filled me with anticipation of awe. Instead, I was flooded with holy fear.  Although the beauty of the architecture was stunning, I was appalled to see the outside lined with homeless and needy, the inside filled with pushy tourists and annoyed noisy customers while a few worshippers sat quietly in their seats on center stage.  A bizarre sight indeed. I reflected on the numerous grand churches that are rising throughout my homeland with their amazing architecture and impressive relics while the outside world still filled with pain and anger not blinking as they pass by the extensive empty parking lots.  I began to contemplate my future, my kids future when it comes to our relationship with the Creator.  That’s when I made this list.  It’s an important list.  The world around us have become experts on meditation.  Therefore, I’ve made my list of not’s.

Meditation is not. . .

  • repeating mantras in uncomfortable positions.
  • relaxing.  It takes work to focus our thoughts on God and good but often results in a relaxed mind.
  • a practice for introverts and antisocial people only.
  • owned by one religion as if meditation originated from one man.  Not in the least, meditation like breathing began when man was created.  We were made for reflection and change as spiritual beings.
  • clearing your mind.  Good luck with that one!
  • dependent on location or environment.
  • going to church but church is 100% better for those who meditate.
  • studying the Bible but meditation will fill you with a fresh desire to study the Bible.
  • praying for your needs or others needs but mediation will turn into a flow of intercession that is like a stream naturally occurring from the source your soul, your spirit.
  • singing worship songs but your worship will intensify when you deepen your ability to walk in His presence through meditation.

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The kids and I sat still and observed the paintings of Christ in the Louve.  I loved hearing them reflect on these paintings and how each picture made them feel.  I hope these practices help them to learn to be still, to listen to God’s voice, to feel His presence and to focus on His nature.  
Why do I have to say this?  It’s the spiritual game we play.  We all have spiritual needs in ourselves and choose to fill it as we wish.  I tend to fill it with what comes easy.  For me, meditation IS NOT my nature.  I am an extrovert not a closet prayer warrior.  I figured I’d stay that way until I hit the nursing home at 90.  I did not realize the blessing that I could receive by meeting with God one on one.  Meditation makes me a better extrovert:)  I’m so glad I didn’t wait for the nursing home to learn that meditation and prayer is for all people!

Our spiritual walk is greatly impacted by our surroundings.  We live in a culture where quiet is often seen as lazy and unproductive.  There were times I believed that connecting with God could be done if I just go to church, listen to uplifting music, and read my Bible.  Check list done.  Therefore, the list of no’s is to say that I will not replace my time of meditation with anything else.  I need quiet times with Him everyday of my life no matter where I’m at.  I am at risk of treating religion like an empty cathedral; beautiful on the outside but irrelevant to a hurting world.  I must never forget this.  Spirituality must be changing me on the inside constantly if I have any hope of being and doing everything I am passionate about in this life.

In finality, take 10 minutes and begin your meditation with one who practiced it a lot.  Paul was alone in a jail cell for more days than I can count some 2,000 years ago and his inspired guide for meditation can be found in Philippians.

“. . . whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things.”

What would life look like if we lived like that?!  I look forward to hearing from many of you as you contemplate what is written here.  What is your definition of meditation?  What does it look like for you?

Meditation As The Foundation Of My Spiritual Walk: Part 1

Meditation As The Foundation Of My Spirituality: Part 2

Meditation As The Foundation Of My Spirituality: Part 2

As I enjoy this Easter weekend with family and friends, I’m reminded of the many benefits of meditation in my life.  One benefit being in a constant state of being ready to be with others.  Often we may socialize, listen to our kids or spouse, but in our mind be miles away.  Meditation allows the mind to reflect on events as they pop in during worship, adoration of the Father, or times of peaceful prayer.  When one allows this time purposefully at the beginning of the day, a clear mind results and an increased desire from God to love others.  When I feel drained half way through the day, I know its time for quiet with my Savior again, at times ending in a peaceful nap. Here I would like to share with you what meditation does for me personally.

What Does Meditation Do?

Health and Social Benefits

Some of the benefits I find from times of meditation are joy, knowing I’m loved, washed from guilt, happiness, preventing depression and anxiety bouts, gushing love for others from my family, friends, and strangers, a desire to share my Faith, a greater desire to read the Bible, a desire to sing praise songs, overcoming temptation, forgiving others more easily, and I could go on and on.

There are numerous physical, social, and emotional healing and good than I have time to explain here but google it and you will see plenty of research including preventing heart disease, divorce, cursing at children, panic attacks, suicide, etc.

Hearing The Voice of God

The best benefit is actually hearing from God and receiving His guidance for everything small and big in life.  Cool, huh?

“I am writing these things to warn you about those who are trying to lead you astray.  But you have received the Holy Spirit, and he lives within you, so you don’t need anyone to teach you what is true.  For the Spirit teaches you everything you need to know and what he teaches is true it is not a lie.  So just as he has taught you, remain in fellowships with Christ.” (1 John 2:26-27).

This is the most important part of me as a spiritual being and may be a big reason why so many people feel so screwed up in spite of their faith in God.  We think we are balanced in life.  We are educated and know that we are spiritual, emotional, social, and physical beings.  But, we fill the spiritual spot with church, prayer, and Bible without the quiet hearing that is necessary to be guided in all of those religious activities.

Deeper Meaning To All Spiritual Activity

Without mediation my religious activities became habitual empty rituals because, as said in 1 John 2:27, our teaching should be dependent on fellowship with Jesus through the Holy Spirit.  Without this, I become an empty life, who has activity but no power, love, or connection to the source.  Could this be why so many are not satisfied with church these days?  Could it be that many are looking for spirituality in the wrong place?  I don’t know.

Effectively Manage My Time In Light Of The Word

This was me.  I use to think of Enoch as an Old Testament figure which could not exist today.  Moses not having a busy schedule of meetings so of course he had 40 days.  David was but must have had plenty of time extra time to mediate and write what he heard from God.  But, how many pages can I fill with what I heard from God personally?  Am I busier than these men?  Is it not possible to “pray without ceasing?” If it is, how many people do I know who do?  Once I contemplated these excuses, it changed me.

Daily Guidance

“Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.” (Ps. 25:5)  I read this verse again and again and again.  I came to realize when I was living isolated without a church anywhere near me, “why do I think that all guidance is going to come from a preacher on Sunday? Should I depend on the outside world and church to feed me when God asked me to feed myself?  All day long?  How do I do that and work, raise kids, and attend to my social schedule?  After meeting many saints today, I came to realize that many people are living this verse each day.  Sacrificing their time to define spirituality how the Bible defines it and not the culture around them.  With this and many other verses in mind, I had to ask myself, am I balanced spiritually, physically, emotionally, and socially?  Was my church activity mainly social or spiritual enough to sustain me daily? Don’t get me wrong, church is awesome but became even better when I was hearing from God through meditation.


Mostly I can know with confidence that I will have His presence in my life of transition.  Often I feel scared not knowing where we will live in a year, my kids education, whether I will suffer from depression or anxiety again.  But knowing that I will have meditation to sit with God and be guided by Him, calms these fears of the future and helps put in perspective His sovereignty and my submission to Him.

Mediation = freedom of stress for my future, clarity of mind, confidence that cannot be gained elsewhere.

It’s thoughts like these that changed me and helped me practice meditation on God as a key to spiritually walking in His power, seeing amazing miracles, and answered prayers. Hearing His voice is more beautiful than a waterfall flowing at its height.  His voice is almost musical and touches every sense.  It cannot easily be transitioned into words.

I would rather live 1 day in His presence than 1,000 days elsewhere and can say that without hesitation. Which brings me up to the last point in the discussion of benefits:

What spiritual aspect do I think is most important to pass on to my children?


With the next generation dropping out of the church scene faster than they graduate from high school, parents need to decide what they will pass on to their children.  We all know that passing on church itself without change in the home is disaster but I think we need to take it even deeper.

Our kids need to know how to receive from God guidance, godly wisdom, protection through temptation, a hand to carry them through their hurts that will meet them wherever they are spiritually and physically.

This is why meditation will always be important to me and priority to teach to my family.  I would love to hear from you and your experiences!

If you missed Part 1 of this series the link is here: Meditation As The Foundation Of My Spiritual Walk: Part 1

Continue to follow for the final part of the series on meditation: How mediation can make all aspects of your spiritual walk more significant.

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